Nov 30, 2012

Full Moon in Each Eye :: I Love You

Admit something: Everyone you see, you say to them, "Love me."

Of course you do not do this out loud, otherwise someone would call the cops.

Still though, think about this, this great pull in us to connect. Why not become the one who lives with a full moon in each eye that is always saying, with that sweet moon language, what every other eye in this world is dying to hear?


Nov 28, 2012

Polaroid Android

I got a polaroid camera some time ago and finally was able to scan the photos I've taken! The first ones are from me and Daniel's Desert Mystic trip, the two below from the Ubiquitous shoot with Laura and the last two ones from the Hamsa shoot on the sunset mountain with Maggie.

I didn't edit the lighting or colors at all, that's how they turned out. Polaroids are magical, they just pop out and have something very endearing about them. 

Nov 24, 2012

Gudrun Sjöden :: Scandinavian Boho Peasant Fashion

My mom introduced me to Gudrun Sjöden a long time ago, a Swedish designer whose clothes are full of folky motifs and interesting patterns, beautiful layers and wonderful colors. I kind of forgot about her until I saw some new winter 2012 photos on Sweet Disorder which I gawk at regularly :) This is a mix of my favorite looks! I love how they use different shape and age models.

Now - although I've moved to wintery atmosphere in my mind this time of the year, the every day life is quite opposite. We're on an adventure in Los Angeles currently and I started this morning in a snuggly situation underneath a purring kitty and a loving doggie at Daniel's mom's house.

Then we went to swim in a pool outside, and float in the jacuzzi spa heaven thing. The weather is all sunny and hot, 90F/32C. I have a trip to Mt. Charleston in the horizon though, which is the highest peak near Las Vegas, and there is actual real snow up there too. Can't wait.

Nov 21, 2012

Hamsa :: Hand of Protection :: Desert Jumpsuit Shoot

Hamsa is Arabic and literally means 'five'. It is understood that the five fingers push away the evil eye and ward off any negative energies. Hand of Fatima refers to Fatima Zahra, the daughter of the Prophet Muhammad. Centuries ago hamsa got into the hands (!) of some Middle Eastern and North African Jewish communities as well and they renamed it to Hand of Miriam. (In the Bible, Miriam is the sister of Moses and Aaron.)

Usually hamsa is depicted upwards, in this vintage jumpsuit however, it points down. Back to history: Arabic Christians adopted hamsa as a bearer of good fortune and called it the Hand of Mary. When the Islamic rule of Spain ended, the Hand of Fatima was so widely used there that Emperor Charles V banned it along with all open right hand amulets in 1526.

The image of right hand is universally a sign of protection - it was found in Mesopotamian artifacts. The Greeks had the Hand of Venus (Aphrodite) which was used to ward off evil eye, strengthen the weak and help with fertility. The Buddha has several mudras or hand gestures and one of the most common ones is the mudra of blessing - an open right hand. This beautiful giant Deity of Buddha sits in Lo Pin monastery in Hong Kong, blessing the village below...

A couple of days ago I climbed up a mountain with Maggie to take some desert magic photos here in Las Vegas. 

Feeling the secrets of the stones...

The jumpsuit is pretty fabulous. Fits size small, and will go up on BOHOPAGE shop later today. Edit: here it is!

"If you don't die of thirst, there are blessings in the desert. You can be pulled into limitlessness, which we all yearn for, or you can do the beauty of minutiae, the scrimshaw of tiny and precise. The sky is your ocean, and the crystal silence will uplift you like great gospel music, or Neil Young." Anne Lamott

Wishing you peaceful moments of thankfulness... <3

I'm not going to buy anything on (Black) Friday by the way, except if it's on Etsy or some other handmade special thing.

Nov 17, 2012

Longing for the Faerie Other :: Resonating Quotes

"The tales of Elfland do not stand or fall on their actuality but on their truthfulness, their speaking to the human condition, the longings we all have for the Faerie other." Jane Olen

" The land created me. I'm wild and lonesome. Even as I travel the cities, I'm more at home in the vacant lots." Bob Dylan

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson

“The wolf said, "You know, my dear, it isn't safe for a little girl to walk through these woods alone." 

Red Riding Hood said, "I find your sexist remark offensive in the extreme, but I will ignore it because of your traditional status as an outcast from society, the stress of which has caused you to develop your own, entirely valid, worldview. Now, if you'll excuse me, I must be on my way.” 

from Politically Correct Bed Time Stories by James Finn Garner

All photos by Rocio Montoya

Nov 13, 2012

Are you right about what you think will make you happy?

I'm always fascinated when modern science figures out something that's been known among the world's wisdom traditions for thousands of years. Yay..??

The latest phenomena I just heard of is something called affective forecasting - the prediction of one's emotional state in the future. And there are many more concepts and terms, all explaining how we humans tend to overestimate, by a large margin, our future happiness and misery.

Example: when I get that new job I'll be so happy and there will be more pleasure in my life. Oh, it's been a month now in the new job and the excitement of it faded away as it always does. It's routine now. It's nothing special. My co-workers are lameheads. I'm stressed out. If only I can get another job. I'd be so happy. Etcetera. Ad infinitum.

On the other side: if I move to Nevada where it's really hot I'm gonna suffer a lot. It's gonna be miserable. I'll be all red-faced and irritated. I'll eat too much coconut ice cream trying to stay cool. Oh wow now that I'm living here, it's not that bad. It's great actually. The weather is not a problem. I even switched to eating light popsicles instead of ice cream. Who would have thought! Woohoo!!

All that being said and understood, humans think we are experts at deciding what makes us the happiest. Yet, according to science and eastern philosophy and the Vedas and common sense, we're lousy at it.

"...research overwhelmingly indicates that the two areas most prone to bias, usually in the form of overestimation, are duration and intensity." Wikipedia

Things we think are super essential in making us happy will quickly fade into the background as soon as we get them ("duration") and they don't turn out as special as we anticipated ("intensity").

The Vedas (India's ancient scriptures) talk how the mind is full of desires and we're kind of intoxicated by them and seldom wonder if they make any sense and just follow them, and find no satisfaction in this process, only more desires (overestimation of happiness). It also describes many paths of self-realization and how we tend to avoid them because we think it's just going to be miserable, too ascetic, it's denying who we really are and so on (overestimation of misery).

Personally, what I gained from this is that I should make my life plans very consciously and wisely and try to rely more on intelligence instead of emotions when weighing options. Instead of "how I feel about this, how that would make me feel", more of: "what do I want to accomplish with my life, what's my ultimate goal - how will taking that step help move me in that direction, rather than this other step".

"Gradually, step by step, with full conviction, one should become situated in trance by means of intelligence, and thus the mind should be fixed on the Self alone and should think of nothing else." Bhagavad-gita, chapter 6, mantra 25

Nov 9, 2012

Vintage Beauties :: BOHOPAGE Clothing Newbies

Today I took photos of BOHOPAGE's new vintage additions. I think the above fairytale apron is perfectly suitable not just for cute baking moments but for magical daily wearing :)

Burgundy shawl... All the images are links to the listings by the way, if you want to see more pics or details.

This vest is made in a way you don't see too often - all the separate pieces are stitched together as cut-outs. Quite beautiful. And whatever happened to my belly button, I do not know, I do have one, that much I know. I didn't retouch the photo or anything. Where did it go?? :P

LOL, as I model these things, I walk back and forth between my room and outside on the porch where I set up my camera on a small table and take the photos with a timer. So when I was wearing this red little number I could definitely see Daniel paying attention as I walked by him ;) It's prettier and stunning-er live, photos don't do it justice. The gown made me feel like a billionaire gypsy goddess who just drank calming chamomile tea after mixing in agave honey with a spoon made out of quartz crystal and who's about to go to sleep and have luxurious dreams of art planets and unicorn wagons and elven romance and such.

Swirly sequin top! That you can wear backwards, open the zipper all the way and ta-dah you have a cool vest. I really like this one.

Warm cozy comfy soft white dream wrap poncho shawl perfection. Basically. Now it's only 13C/55F outside and very windy, I'm going to wrap myself into my own white woolen fairy cape and go breathe in some chilly air and soak in the starlight. 

OMG did I just say 'chilly air' about the weather?? 13C is an average summer's day in Finland. My arctic instincts must be turning into a desert dweller's perspectives, how strange. Circumstances do that to you I suppose?! :)

Nov 5, 2012

Drawing on Balloons :: Magic Lives Inside of You

Daniel was on the East Coast for a week and I had balloons welcoming him back home last night. I got golden balloons because in Finnish you call your loved one kulta. It translates to 'honey', but literally means gold. I wrote loving messages on them :) Here are a couple, the Magic Lady and a line from Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes' wonderful song Home that we both love.

Yay, the creative darling Allison from True For Now got inspired by the recent dress as wall decor post and created this beautiful spot in her home with "an old favorite tour dress with accompanying Rasta ecoutrements"! Sweet!

I'm still wondering which dress I should go with so have nothing to show yet :) Actually what's holding me back a bit is that we're looking for a new place since we currently live with housemates, and so are looking for our own faerynest now <3

Nov 3, 2012

Wild Pretty Wings :: New Song Video with Mr Guitar


raindrops hit, hit
the roof like ghosts
uninvited yet
all over the place

i can fall hard too
fall on the ground
fall on my face
and lose myself

i can fall hard too
but i never do
because i choose
to stay with you

mosquitoes circle
outside the window
fragile bodies
with worn out souls 

i have wings too
like mosquitoes,
angels and certain
types of dinosaurs

but i hide my wings
my wild pretty wings
because i choose
to stay with you

Those who know me personally know that I separated in the summer 2011, and that my divorce went through a couple of months ago. I have a ton of songs from the past years where I was pondering how to make it work... or therapeutic outburst poems... I had some fantastic, adventurous times but there was also sadness, feeling unappreciated in many aspects of myself.

In the present moment I have to say I feel like I'm totally flying and soaring every day and my wild pretty wings are all over the place and in my elf boyfriend's face and he loves them and me and I've learnt many lessons relationship and life-wise, and many if not all my dreams have come true <3

What do you think, should I just keep my songs to myself or share in the future too, if anyone wants I can post them more often, I usually don't because I think they're maybe boring. If nobody leaves a comment I know it was boring :D :D

Nov 1, 2012

I Realized Why Yogis and Mystics Meditate on Mountains

Today I went for a long hike alone. I climbed on top of a mountain - I've never done that before. All the way to the highest peak. With every step I felt more and more real. With every step I left that much farther behind external things that define me: where I'm from, what type of work I do, what my lifestyle is, who my friends are, how I spend my days... None of that is who I essentially am.

I am a living being with a mysterious connection to the world around me. That is the only thing that will be there with me at the time of death - the real me, stripped off of any temporary attributes - and my connection to the world. To God.

I realized this is why all the yogis and mystics of yore (and still today) stay on mountains... Himalayas... Mountains do that to you. They're conducive to meditation. They lift you up in multiple ways. They connect you with the magic of this world, and open you up to receive what's beyond this world.

I was so euphoric during my hike today, having a good time chanting mantras to little lizards, apologizing to grasshoppers I startled and singing for them too. I hid behind rocks and bushes from a huge eagle that circled underneath and above me. (Yes underneath, because I was higher up on a cliff than where he was flying.) (Yes, hiding because he was so HUGE he made me feel like food.)

The sun started to set and I made up a song as I made my way down. The lyrics were all these realizations I had while on my little journey. That was fun. Free. Honest. Heartsong. ♥